WISHING: written by me aka seekingsunshine
Wishing for a boy
That I never ever knew
Wishing for a school
That could see the best in you
Wishing for more sunshine
In cloud filled skies
Wishing for happiness
When you long to die
Wishing for happiness
When your heart is filled with pain
Wishing for the hottest sun
To dry up all your rain
Wishing you could play
Like other kids do
Wishing they would make you happy
See the best in you
Wishing you had other children
To whom you could relate
Wishing you could get what you need
Them to understand; to educate
Wishing you could be treated
Like the good boy that you are
Wishing they would see
You are my shining star
All the wishes I could wish
Never wanting to change who you
Mommy loves you forever
I see the best in your heart so true
Pain (Written by me aka seekingsunshine)
The pain in your heart
Others could never understand
They never held you close as I did
With your heart beat as their marching band
They were not with you
When you were scared of everyone in sight
They were not with you
On your first day afraid of light
They do not know
The feelings that you hide
They do not know
All the confusion and terror inside
They did not hold you
Hourless nights as you cried
From all the terrors
You had inside
Cars falling of bridges
Train crashes
Being eaten by sharks
Buildings burned to ashes
All filled with blood and gore
You wanted so desperetly
To suffer from them
No more
They were not with you
For your four hour rages
They were not with you
For all the first stages
They do not understand
The choices we make
They do not understand
Why we even medicate
They did not have the sleepless nights
As they watched your every breath
They did not have the five hour rages
Watching you suffer from your internal fight
They do not see the sadness
Deep inside your eyes
They do not see the happiness
You have trapped inside
They do not see the happy boy
Who makes my world so bright
They do not see what I see
They do not see your light
Advocating forever
Until others understand
Never giving up
Until all our know ledged in our land
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