My Little Child (Poem)

My little child (By me aka seekingsunshine)

Go to sleep my little child
For things will get better in a little while
When the morning comes
A new day has begun

Smiles fill my heart
When to me sweet songs you sing
Nobody else knows
The joy in my heart you bring

Loving you each day and night
Seeing your body fight your brain
My heart fills with fright
As I try to stay sane

You are my little son
Only six years old
Yet your eyes show pain
That an old man knows

You tried to be good
You tell to me each day
You tried your best
Your sad uncried words say

I know that you hurt
Feel so much pain
From a body filled with madness
A heart filled with dry rain

The time is coming soon
To the hospital you should go
All the pain this makes me feel
Thinking of the day you must go

Be strong my little man
They will help you understand
Keep you safe
Is what they’ll do

Know in your heart
I love you so true
Only wanting the best for you
I have to do what they want me to

Wonders of a Mother

This is one of my favorite poems that I have written. It was also the 1st about having a child with special needs...

Wonders of a Mother written by Me aka Seekingsunshine

Wonders of a mother
I wonder what tomorrow brings
For a little life all filled with fright
I wonder what tomorrow brings
For a little boy so afraid at night

Can not control your body
From all the terrors inside
Darkness fills your heart
You want so much to hide

Here I sit
On a cold dark night
Wondering what the future brings
My heart fills with fright

People do not understand
What goes on in my son's land
They do not know him
They don't hold his hand

The fears that he shows
We are the only ones that know
In a world so full of people
We seem all alone

Wishing there were a magic pill
To make things all great
Wishing the rain
Could not flood his gates

Wishing he could
Be a happy boy
Sitting quietly
Playing with his toys


Laughing and playing
Like the other kids do
Getting good grades
Getting along good in school

Deep in his heart
I feel his aches and pains
For I am his mother
I know how his heart rains

He does not want
To live like this I know
For only I wish
To others he could show

The happiness he feels inside
That fills my heart with pride
People do not understand him
That is why my heart cries

Wishing his moods
Would not be so blue
Wishing that others
Could understand him too

Wishing that schools
Could just cooperate
Wishing here lonely
His life could be great

I wish that he
Gets the help that he needs
Wishing in life
He does succeed

Not knowing what to do
With a boy so happy AND blue
Filled with anger and hostility
Only wanting others to see

To the hospital
I can not let him go
For he is a baby
That only I seem to know

His pain is invisible
Behind a smile so bright
Wishing others could see
What can make his heart light

There are three children in there
One is nice as can be
That is the one
I wish everyone could see

Then there is the angry one
Who hurts others until they cry
He will tell you I hate you
And laugh as he hurts you

There is my sad son
Does not know what he has done
Wonders why as people are mad
Asks "Why are you sad"

The little looks on his face
Are filled with such sadness
A boy locked inside
A world filled with madness


I love him so dearly
As I sit here so teary
Wonder what I could do
Have I been a good mother

What could I have done different
So he did not end up this way
My heart fills with thunder
As I pray to God each day

Please give me the strength
Patience to deal
Please let people know
His disability is real

Please help them understand
Do for him what is best
Please look over us lord
Keep us all safe in this land

I wonder why is my son
Stuck in this body
That does not not cooperate
Will he ever be free
From this bipolar gate

Sunny Prayers (Poem)

Sunny Prayers by me aka seekingsunshine

Praying to God
Each day and Night
Praying to God
That the clouds won't overtake our sunlight

Praying for the strength
And patience to carry on
Praying for the wisdom
To always stay strong

Praying that they will understand
What goes on inside my son
Praying for all the battles
I fight for him will be won

Praying for safety
For children in centers and hospitals
Praying that the help that they
Receive will be from those who know

Praying for courage
To be the best mom I can be
Praying for acceptance
For all the others to know

Praying for the knowledge
Of children with BP to grow
Praying for the days
When suffering he will know longer know

My faith remains strong
God is watching over
Knowing he is here with us
Where he will remain forever

Is It Hard To Be Your Momma? (Poem)

Is it Hard to be Your Momma? by me aka seekingsunshine

Looking into your eyes
I know all the madness inside
That fills my little boy
With feelings in his own world he hides

I know the sunshine that you bring
Into my life sweet songs you sing
Brightening my days with sun
My regrets are none

Everything happens for a reason
The weather hearts change with every season
Seasons are your moods inside
You try so hard and true to hide

Is it hard being your mother
I was asked the other day
No it is not I did say with pride
For I see and focus on all the goodness inside

Days when you sing
Flowers you bring
Presents you make
Hugs that you take

Faith in the man above
He made you with love
Gave you to me
Because inside you I see

I see my great child
Who has hard times all the while
Living in this place
Needing his space

His smile is so bright
With those whom he shares
Hugs are so tight
Like hugging a bear

Kisses on my palm
Like his favorite book “The Kissing Hand”
Proud to be his Momma
Advocating, holding his hand

Each day I pray
That people will understand
For patience and strength
For acceptance in this land

Sunshine (Poem)

Sunshine: by me aka Seekingsunshine

Happiness inside you
I waited so long to see
Locked inside a world of madness
You longed so long to be free

Hospitalization was the hardest thing
I ever had to do
Also the best because I found
This happy boy hiding inside of you

Seven years blessed
To be your mom
God finds it within me
To help me stay strong

He knew I would love you
Be here through your pain
Be here like sunshine
To dry up your silent cries of rain

Stable is a word
I am so scared to say
Hoping that the sunshine
Will continue to come our way

Thankful for each day
That your smile shines so bright
Hoping that it will not change
Over the next full moon night

Even if it does
I will remember
Being thankful
For what was

I love you my son
More than the stars
Bigger then the sky
Longer than from here to Mars

I will keep fighting
Along by your side
To get what you need and deserve
What is best we will decide

Hoping we make
The decisions right for you
Never wanting more rain
Trying to prevent any mistake

Raindrops and storms will again
Come our way chances are
I am hopefully praying
They are not near but afar

We will get through
What ever comes our way
Strength, patience, guidance, and wisdom
Each night we pray

Everything happens for a reason
Though the reasons often remain unknown
I will always have faith I did the best
Gave you the most love you could have been shown

Love,
Mommy